Mati...

Assalamualaikum....

Harga minyak naik... Harga barang2 pun naik... Ingatkan berat badan jer naik time cuti2 nih... Aper nak jadi ngan dunia nih... Malas nak citer pasal benda nih sebab, rasenye dah berjuta-juta blog kat internet nih mesti cakap bende yg same...

So, saya nak citer pasal something yg kiter akan, sedang and pernah hadapi nyer... Cinta. Tapi saya xnak cakap pasal ayat2 power, how to get him/her to like you or to forget about a person... Saya akan bercerita pasal break up, clash or perpisahan.

Ada macam2 sebab perkara ini berlaku. Saya xnak citer sebab kadang2 alasan nyer sangat lah x masuk akal. Tapi ada juga yang dapat bersama semula, bagus laa. Tapi bagaimana kalau dah xleh nak rapat, nak dekat, nak say hi, or even to mention the name?

Ok... Sekiranya kiter break up sebab kiter marah, geram or benci kiter still akan ingat akan si dia. Percaya la, cinta dan benci dipisahkan dengan garisan yang sangat halus. Bak kater orang, kalo macam nih kiter still have the chance to get back together. Maybe not as lovers but as a friend at least.

Biler kiter benci or marah kat seseorang, lame2 benda tuh akan reda. Seteruk maner pun kiter benci, kite leh luper benda tuh. But yes, it takes time to heal. How long? It depends on you and that person. Forget and forgive.

Tapi, macam maner kalo punca kiter break up is the feeling is gone? We force ourself to want her but the feeling just wasnt there. He/she still loves you. Care for you. Break up for a reason that is so unfair to that person.

Can time heal? Kiter ingat dengan berpisah nih, mungkin kiter akan dapat perasaan yang sangat indah semasa kiter bersamer dengan si dia... Tapi ia x pernah hadir. Walaupun kiter merenung kembali kisah2 lame, perasaan itu x pernah hadir.

Lebih memeritkan lagi, perasaan Cinta itu tidak ader untuk sesaper lagi. Hati kiter dah mati...

That is why I dont believe in love with a human. Yes, Im talking about myself. It happen to me. I tried to fight and meet new people, but that feeling was never there. I force myself to open up, do crazy things and sacrifice things that is so important to me but it wasnt there.

Perhaps, Im not trying hard enough. I still believe love exist in me, perhaps, I didnt find the right person yet. Perhaps, I didnt aware of my surroundings, open my eyes a little wider.

Perhaps, love was never meant to be mine...

Sekian...

Wassalamualaikum w.b.t.

Serenade....

A person told me of a name. A name that will lead me to search in the unforgivable reality. What is it? What does it mean? For days the name haunted me until I got the chance to search from the internet. Slowly I type the name... S-c-h-u-b-e-r-t-'s--S-e-r-e-n-a-d-e...

The result is so unexpected. Even that person doesn't know that the name leads to a man, and a song. A beautiful song. I continue my search, learning about the man and his work.

Franz Schubert is his full name. German is where he came from. Serenade, is one of his masterpiece. Enjoy...

Kesunyian...

Apa ertinya kesunyian ini?
Gulita hidupku pilu
Tiada yang hadir membantu
Namun aku menghargainya
Membawa erti siapa aku
Apa yang bermain di hati
Saatnya keakhir sunyi ini
Aku mula resah gelisah
Adakah aku ia akan kembali?
Ya, aku inginkan ia selalu
Hampa, ia datang dan pergi

Siapa yang inginkan kesunyian? Tiada siapa yang mahu akan kehadirannya. Tetapi ia akan hadir pada saat kita tidak ingin ia hadir. Namun, pada ketika ia akan pergi, kita akan mula merindui kesunyian itu. Di mana kita akan memahami erti kehidupan. Kita akan lihat segalanya, di mana kita tidak dapat lihat semasa diselubungi keseronokan dunia. Sedih dan pilu akan hadir memberi kita masa dan ruang untuk membuka mata hati, melihat kebenaran hati manusia.

Jangan benci kesunyian itu. Ada hikmahnya. Gunakan ia sebaik mungkin.